Monday, May 23, 2011

saying good-bye to the distractions in my life

I believe there is a time and a season to everything. I believe that sitting on the couch and watching other people live out their lives in tv shows can bring a bit of peace when there is none in your life. However, I'm going to make a change. I use to love to write and read and paint. I use to create. I have to come to the conclusion that I MUST do those things again. Simply put, I am withering away, and I need to remember who I am.

I am a confident, courageous, lovable, and mellow woman.

I'm pretty sure I have not been acting in that role. I have been set on survive for far too long.

What does it look like to stop just surviving and start thriving? Well, it starts with turning off the TV, the computer (I know, it's ironic that I'm blogging this, huh?!), and fb. It means more one on one contact. More park trips with my kidlet, a trip to the store to get paint and canvas, sewing supplies, and most of all it means, learning to be me again.

I don't want to give my power away to Nate anymore. I don't want to continue to blame the problems I've been facing in my life since he died on him anymore. There was a time and a place for that. Now is the time to forgo the couch (maybe couch time is OK when reading!) and be that courageous, mellow woman who enjoys tea and painting.

So, does anyone want to hang out with a cup of tea and enjoy a good conversation, paint a picture, or have a park date with me. Cause, I'm ready. Oh, and I think I should probably clean my house again!

I just want to warn you guys, I'm going to check my email and fb about once a day. So, if you want to communicate with me, call me.