Sunday, March 25, 2012


Hi all.
Thanks so much for your out pouring of love, prayers, and visits. It was been so nice to know you are all standing in the gap for me and baby girl.
I'm going to make this short and sweet, because I had a fair number of visitors and I'm pooped!
My pancreas levels have gone down again today and the doctors were all pleased. My liver levels are staying put, which makes everyone a little nervous as to whether there might be another stone. They did, however, give me the go ahead to eat some real food to see if the pain came back. I ate the most delicious turkey sandwich of my life! Seriously, not eating food really gave me a great appreciation of it! No pain after eating. So, they're going to release me tonight around 9:30-- right after my steroids shot (which they've all assured me is purely preventative, but could be a really good thing for baby if I end up needing to deliver early due to complications).
So, as long as my body stays pain free through then (and we pray for the rest of the pregnancy), I'm going to do some more recovery at home this week.
Lucky for me Caleb's work is awesome and he will be home for most of the week, and it's also spring break, so I get to take it easy without much guilt.
Love to you all.
Please keep praying!

The great gallstone adventure

I've been sick for 3 weeks with severe abdominal problems. My midwife suggested that she thought it was kidney stones or a small chance gallstones. The stones just needed to pass. I took all kinds of vitamins and supplements to try to get them to pass. It just kept hurting. I just felt like my insides wanted to be on my outsides. Not to mentioned I was regularly bludgeoned by my daughter from the womb. It makes for a pretty difficult and excruciating experience.

This last week has been particularly bad. The regular things that seemed to help we're no longer helping. I was just in pain. We went to the emergency room on Thursday morning very early and they immediately did an ultra sound on my abdomen. There they noticed several gallstones in my gallbladder anid a blockage in my right kidney. So, assuming it was still just kidney stones they sent me home with a muscle relaxant to help bring the kidney stones out.

Nothing helped.

I was up at 5am again with awful pain. Would it ever stop? As I tried to relax and breathe through the pain, it just kept getting worse. I broke down. I started sobbing convulsively- it just hurt way too much. I gave birth to Cole naturally, and never, ever did I feel the need to cry or really make much noise, it didn't hurt more than I could bear. This Did. I couldn't handle it.

Caleb in his wisdom and love gathered me up and again we went to the ER. After checking my blood and urine again, they saw that my liver and pancreas levels were not right. I was in some trouble.

The gave me WONDERFUL pain killers. The doctors rushed around, strapping IVs and various monitors for baby all over me. I didn't care. I was no longer in pain. thank God!

A couple of doctors came in to check on me, giving me all kinds of information, and basically explaining that I needed to go into surgery today to get a gall stone which had lodged itself in such a way as to block my liver and pancreas from working. I had pancreatitis, a severe situation where my pancreas was starting to actually eat itself.

They took me into the surgery room where they proceeded to use a scope to go down my mouth, travel through my intestines to the spot where the problem was. They made a small cut to let the stone free. My tube that the stone was making its way down was 5 mm in diameter. The stone was 8 mm in diameter. Obviously there was a reason for my sobbing. The doctor said it was "crowning" and a good friend has suggested that I name it Petra! It's almost like I gave birth.

Everything went awesome. The doctors were able to move quickly and my pancreas is back to normal (was at 3000 and is now at 300). My liver, however hasn't made the jump to health yet. They think there might be another stone closer to the liver that is blocking some of the tube.

They want me to have my gallbladder removed while I'm pregnant. I have a 3 week window where they can still do the surgery lapriscopically and after that it would be a full blown open on the table surgery.

Last night the ob came in and told me they want to give me steroids to help develop the baby's lungs just in case she comes early due to all the complications.

I'm scared. I don't want to have a baby at 28 weeks. I don't want to be in pain. I need my liver to work to keep myself healthy and baby safe. There are lots of variables- like whether my lab work comes back today good, and if I continue to have gallstone attacks.

Please pray for us. Please pray for safety for the baby. Please pray for good liver function. Please pray that I wouldn't go bonkers from sitting in a hospital bed, hungry (my diet is clear liquid only), bored and mostly alone.

Thanks friends. I'll let you know more when we do.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Getting Married.... someday

Cole found this tie in the baby clothes & decided to wear it. Then he needed a proper 'wedding shirt' to go along with it. He now has established his wedding clothes, just has to find the right 'honey' to marry. Apparently he asked a little girl in his preschool class to marry him, but she said she couldn't. She needed to go to college first. Smart Girl.

Saturday, March 10, 2012


3 years tomorrow. I still can't believe he's gone. I miss him everyday. I came across this picture of Nate talking to me when I was in my momma's tummy, and it struck a chord. Sweet remembrances.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

It's been a while

Hi friends. It's once again been quite a while. Things here are running along fast! I am now 25 weeks pregnant with our daughter. I can't believe in about 15 weeks we will be parents to two children! As far as the pregnancy goes, it isn't that bad. I'm hungry a lot and tired all the time, sleeping is becoming more and more difficult, and I have to pee all the time. So, normal.
Thanks to some good friends, things in her room are coming along swimmingly! We got her walls painted, crib set up, furniture moved and shuffled around the house to accommodate our changing and growing family. I think more than anything else, I'm just trying to get through each day with one accomplishment! Today I got my guest bathroom cleaned! I knew, huge success. ;)

I also have started working a little bit and am loving this new venture I am on. I am working as a business owner of thirty-one gifts, an awesome bag company that does home shows and works to give women flexibility, organization, and freedom. I think this is going to be an awesome new adventure for our family, as I will be able to work a few nights a month and bring in a part time salary as well as give me the ability to help others fundraise and get organized themselves. I have done a few shows over the past few weeks and have had a lot of fun. If you're interested in what I'm doing, please check out my new website at: No pressure, but if you're interested in ordering or having a show, please let me know! I have a goal of 4 more shows (a qualifying show is $200) in the next 45 days. So, take a look and let me know if you want to help me reach my goal.

On another note,it's March and it snowed all morning. Makes me think of another March a few years ago when it snowed, and the remnants of that snow were still on the ground when my family came to give comfort and love. The anniversary of my brother's death is coming and that also means spring and new life is coming. It's weird how those two things will always be together in my mind-- that grief of a God loving person can bring about new life. New life always comes after the winter. And so, new seasons are springing into my life. I embrace them and think of Nate smiling down on me and my big prego belly.

Until next time. Enjoy where you are today.