Monday, May 23, 2011

saying good-bye to the distractions in my life

I believe there is a time and a season to everything. I believe that sitting on the couch and watching other people live out their lives in tv shows can bring a bit of peace when there is none in your life. However, I'm going to make a change. I use to love to write and read and paint. I use to create. I have to come to the conclusion that I MUST do those things again. Simply put, I am withering away, and I need to remember who I am.

I am a confident, courageous, lovable, and mellow woman.

I'm pretty sure I have not been acting in that role. I have been set on survive for far too long.

What does it look like to stop just surviving and start thriving? Well, it starts with turning off the TV, the computer (I know, it's ironic that I'm blogging this, huh?!), and fb. It means more one on one contact. More park trips with my kidlet, a trip to the store to get paint and canvas, sewing supplies, and most of all it means, learning to be me again.

I don't want to give my power away to Nate anymore. I don't want to continue to blame the problems I've been facing in my life since he died on him anymore. There was a time and a place for that. Now is the time to forgo the couch (maybe couch time is OK when reading!) and be that courageous, mellow woman who enjoys tea and painting.

So, does anyone want to hang out with a cup of tea and enjoy a good conversation, paint a picture, or have a park date with me. Cause, I'm ready. Oh, and I think I should probably clean my house again!

I just want to warn you guys, I'm going to check my email and fb about once a day. So, if you want to communicate with me, call me.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Meg, I am SO HAPPY for yoy, honey! Truly grief has had many, many layers for you. Creating something from your soul is a powerful journey and can at times unearth even more layers you did not recognize were there. But in those bursts of inspiration they come bearing gifts of great healing . So my sweet woman, go forward and THRIVE! You ARE strong. You ARE courageous. And noe you will not only be mellow, but filled with great joy...a real joy that will serve you well throughout this journey, this side of Heaven! I love you, Meggie, Aunt Janet

Emily said...

Yes, I want to set-up a park date and a tea date...unfortunately, I won't be getting this fat pregnant butt over there any time soon..up for a visit here? lol You're welcome any time!

Meggie said...

hey, ladies, thanks for the encouraging words. I love you both and wish we lived closer. xoxo

terry said...

Meg, just today I finished reading It Happens Every Spring by Dr. Gary Chapman and Catherine Palmer. The women in the book form a Tea club and learn to support each other in creative and loving ways. I was so inspired.....I understand your need to be creative and I understand your comments about tv and fb! I love you sweet girl!! Francie

Meggie said...

Francie,
I'll have to check out that book. Sounds like a good read. I love you!
Meg