So, life has been busy and full and full of busy. I'm always running here and there and it seems like I rarely get a moment alone to just write. So, I would very much like to start blogging again. It's been a long time.
I have decided I need to cut out things that I'm doing just so I don't hurt people. I sometimes schedule myself 3 or 4 things to do in a day-- which doesn't seem like a lot when you're a business person, but my life consists of nap time schedules, laundry, kindergarten schedules, feeding kidlets, grocery shopping, cooking, etc. I am apart of a book club, a game club, 2 weekly Bible studies, have a gym membership, and plan at least 2 play dates a week. I'm tired. To top it all off, I have also been dealing with a flood/house remodel for over 2 months now. So, that means, I have random worker men in my house all day almost every day. I have dust flying, pee on my toilet from unknown people, and a dog who barks at every little noise, because she's confused.
I'm not sure how to say "no" when people want to do something. I feel like I'm always up for dinner with friends, heck in the last week, we've had dinner with friends 4 times. I love spending time with people. I do feel energized when I'm with them. Then, I come home and realize that I haven't had quality time with my little people, because I'm doing so much.
Last Wednesday, I woke up late, somehow got out the door in 25 minutes, went to Bible study, came home for a quick lunch, took Cole to school, ran errands, did nap time with Amelia, ran to get Cole, went to the gym, came home, fed my kids at 7:30, a friend came over until 9 and then I put the kids to bed. This is a little busier than normal, but it's not so far out of the norm... After I put my kids to bed, I realized that I was so busy doing good things that I didn't have any time to just be with them.
I'm trying to figure out what is going to fill me as a person and what is going to take away from my family. I can't keep going and doing like I am. I can't schedule something for every night of the week. I just can't.
I have a lot of friends and only so much time. I love people, and that's the hardest thing about trying to simplify life, I feel like in order to just be with my family, I have a cut out friendships... and I'm not sure how that works.
So, if I say no to you, please don't take it personal. Please know that I am trying to find balance with my family.
I know adding my blog back in seems like something else to do, but really, for me, writing helps me to process my life.