This year was suppose to be different than last year. We were not suppose to have big things break on us and have huge financial issues this year like we did last....
I think life has a way of laughing at us when things are difficult-- by making them more difficult. At least that's the feeling I've had for the past few months.
I'm not wishing life was easy, but that I could perhaps coast a little bit and not have to worry.
I really am trying to keep my chin up and have a positive attitude. I don't think I'm succeeding very well today.
I just want to curl up in the fetal position and fall asleep.
Instead I'm sitting on the computer looking at prices of newish cars and water heaters. There are currently 11 tabs on my browser open comparing new water heaters and newish cars. I guess when life throws you curve balls, you have to buy more things?
I am over the spend money on things you don't want to spend money on... wouldn't it be nice to be able to pay off credit cards, sit in a clean, non construction zone house, and think of what I could make for dinner-- having enough to buy any and all groceries I want? Perhaps someday. As I think of it, maybe this is just how life goes. You get 1 step forward to get pulled back 2 more steps.
There are many things I am thankful for-- clean running water (even if it is cold), a warm house, new flooring (thanks Met Life!), healthy kids, my hubby's job, the ability to stay home with our children, good friends who have helped me and encouraged me in numerous ways--especially this last difficult year, support from church, a Bible study group who welcomed us with open arms and has treated us like family... the list could go on and on.
Tunnel vision is a terrible thing. Too much focus on the bad has a way of seeping into my heart and making me forget all the truly wonderful things life has to offer.
So, if you see me and I'm in a whiny mood-- just tell me to remember all the great things about life! This is a season and it too shall pass.